I am just 2 kewl
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Happy Bday to my big booty white girl ❤
Work really do be having you friends with people older than you. Deena, you’re so stellar. You have such a vibrant personality that makes my day. You’re stern and sweet, you show no fear in showing your emotions and you’re incredibly funny.
I am glad that we get to spend another year together. May we have many more celebrations together. May you go nowhere with all that but by my side in loving friendship ❤
Went out with some friends for a birthday party bar crawl. Always good to be with my peeps 🙂
It is my good friend’s birthday today. We met while I was working as a patient meal deliverer, I don’t think I was a manager quite yet.
I fuck with you the long way Kermy. You’re a great guy and a great friend. Always there to listen and always there when I need a laugh and or smoke. The world is truly blessed to have you as am I.
We’ve been waiting to share a legal drink for a long time, I’m happy we can finally see the day
Who’s gonna have a Good Friday… y’all and me
The one older coworker who I don’t like is gone. I get to work with one of my favorite coworkers. My Minecraft house looks good, it’s one of good friend’s birthdays tomorrow. Like it just doesn’t get any better than this 😫🥺
I am no longer in my early 20s.
Not that I feel like I’m super old or anything, in fact I feel the youngest I’ve ever been. I’m in my prime or entering my prime era. 23 made me feel so young but aged me emotionally. I don’t feel the need to harp on about the woes of my year, that is what my year in review is for. I just feel really good. I feel really good about my life, about the people in my life, the things that I’m doing, my goals, my health, my family, everything. My hardwork is paying off. I’m seeing the fruits of my labor.
This birthday wasn’t just any birthday, it was my golden birthday. I had been looking forward to this birthday for 10 years honestly. I always wondered what type of person I would be when this birthday rolled around. Would I be happy? Would I be in a relationship? Would I have a nice job? I can say I’m happier than I thought I was going to be at this age. I thought I would be miserable. I was right about being in crippling debt, but I didn’t think about the woman I would become. I never thought I would be a strong, mildly assertive, mindful, compassionate, and capable young woman. I no longer view myself as just a girl. I am a woman.
A woman who had a big birthday to plan.
I spent my last birthday bar hopping with my boyfriend. I had a great time with that but at the time I was struggling to connect with people. I had friends but our relationships were in the budding stages so we weren’t quite at that point yet.
I am at much different place in my life now than I was last year for my birthday. This year I wanted to do a big bash. I wanted to go to the Dells and I wanted to go to a casino to try my luck. Currently, I have a decent sized friend group so that was my biggest issue. I originally wanted to invite at least 20 people max but I narrowed it down to 16 since the place I chose was a 21 and up resort. I figured it was easier this way since you needed to be 21 gamble at the casinos.
To invite that many people over was ballsy. It could either be really good or really bad. My grandma questioned if I knew that many people, which kinda sucked because I don’t see why I wouldn’t be able to make friends or have that many friends. I am thankful that mostly everyone that I invited could show up. It meant a lot to me that people wanted to celebrate me with me. It feels amazing to be celebrated. It feels amazing to know that people see me and want to be with me and hang out with me. To have the community and family that I do is more than I could ever ask for.
Figuring out where to house all the people who were coming was the most stressful part. You would think paying for it would be hard but I was planning ahead early so I had time to save and work overtime if needed.
Our first option was a cabin that housed 14 people. It was super nice and had a lofted sleeping area as well as 2 bedrooms and pullout couches and a private deck. The downsides were that it was right by the rental office, no wifi, there was only one bathroom, and I was 2 people over the limit.
I found out I was over the limit the day that we were supposed to check in. Shout out to Angela at the resort, she really came in clutch. We upgraded to their house instead. That fit 16 people comfortably, 3 bathrooms, 2 living rooms, wifi, a private deck, 5 bedrooms, and a jacuzzi tub in the master suite. It was perfect. I don’t know why I didn’t go with the house in the first place.
I had so much booze, so much food, and so much fun. We had a potluck which worked out incredible. We were set for food for the entire weekend. The drinks were flowing too. I had my cherry flavored Dr Mcgillicuddy, I had tequila, I had my favorite moscato wine with me, and I had my friends. It was more than I could ask for. Since the internet sucked, we were kinda forced to talk to each other. It was nice though. I connected on a deeper level with more of my friends. We got to talk about things that gave more insight to who they are and what they have going on. It was nice to disconnect with them like that. It felt like a vacation. That is exactly what I want 24 to feel like, a fucking vacation, especially after the last year that I had.
The casino was cool too. It was a very sad place though. The excitement that my friends and I had versus the sad and lifeless energy the other patrons had was a little staggering. It felt like they almost hated that we were excited. They probably hated that we were a diverse group of people too. Some old coot pushed my friend to get to her husband who wasn’t winning shit and didn’t really even say sorry. I came into the casino with almost $200. I only took out $60 and won absolutely nothing. I thought the birthday luck would carry me but it clearly doesn’t work that way. One of my boyfriend and I’s mutual friend was luckier than I was. They won close to $150 or more I think. I wish I had their luck.
All in all, it was good to celebrated. Everyone should feel that way on their birthday. They should feel special, they should be surrounded by people who want to be in their orbit.
I am thankful, more thankful than I could ever say. I love all of my friends and most importantly, I love the girl that they’re celebrating. She’s so cool and smart. She knows her shit. She strong willed and has goals She loves having fun and connecting with people. She hates being told what to do and is fiercely independent. She likes miniature earrings and warm sweaters. She likes taking herself on dates. She’s kind of spacey sometimes. Her feet are always planted firmly on the ground but her head is in the clouds. She has a boyfriend who loves her and a family that supports most of the things she does. And she’s really good looking and her ass getting fat too.
I love me. Happy birthday Shanice, you are amazing. It is your year, it’s your time. Go and be great!!
” So you’re worried about not because you’ll be in a house full of vampires but because you think they won’t approve of you”
~ Edward Anthony Cullen
I fucking love Twilight.
It was one of the first book series I fell in love with ever. I don’t know what it is about the story that drew me in the way it did. It’s not like it’s remarkable or anything and could’ve been written better but despite those things, it’s still one of the greatest pieces of literature that I’ve ever read.
Let me take you back circa 2008-2011. I first discovered Twilight when I was either 9 or 10; I think I was just at the right age to get hooked. My older sister had a friend at the time who was super excited about New Moon coming out. Me being an avid reader was incredibly interested. I don’t think I had ever read anything with vampires in it. I read some supernatural stories like The Tail of Emily Windsnap but nothing that crazy. I would save that stuff for when I was 13.
She was nice enough to gift me her copy, I hadn’t discovered my local library yet, and I remember being super fascinated with the cover. I think this was my first young adult novel. It was much thicker than all the other books I had read. The apple and hand on the cover all but beckoned me to open it. I don’t think I told my grandma I was reading it. She stopped paying attention to all the books I read around this time since I read a lot. I remember tracing the hand and memorizing the book cover because I thought it was so cool. I’m not sure if I read it the first night I got it but I remember reading the preface and being intrigued instantly. The stakes were already so high. I had never read anything like this. There were people dying who had never before.
I was hooked. I had gotten the fever. I was my first teenage girl obsession ever. It was like one of my towers had just been hit. The JB and One Direction obsessions would hit my other towers 2/3 years later.
It became everything to me. I eat, breathed, slept, pissed, and shitted anything Twilight. It was all I could talk about it. It was all I could think about. My sister wasn’t as into it but I had friends at school who were. Despite my fever, I only had access to the first book, I wouldn’t read New Moon or the rest of the series for quite some time.
As I aged, I grew more obsessed. I had managed to see Breaking Dawn pt 1 in theaters with my grandma and sister and pirated part 2 online with my uncles, cousins, and siblings. But I always felt like I was missing out on having seen in them theaters. I only had the books and streaming services weren’t like they were now when I was younger. I did manage to see them once I pirated them or had gotten the DVDs from the book mobile. I had a ritual for a couple months where I would rent out Twilight and New Moon and watch them back to back. I would also read the books all in one weekend as well. I can quote all the movies word for word, I can point out what scenes had what songs. I loved all the soundtracks and like every young twihard, I wanted to live in Washington in hopes I would meet my own loyal vampire boyfriend I could die in childbirth and be reborn into a vampire with.
The magic eventually wore off as I got older and read better books with better tropes and better plot and non Mary sue characters. I formed different opinions on the series I was super obsessed over.
It’s not God’s gift to humanity or anything but it was still something special to me. It was my first love so to say.
You can imagine at my age of 24, how excited I was to learn that 2 of my local Marcus Theaters were hosting a Twilight Marathon. I had done many of those myself no sweat so I was prepared. 12 hours of Twilight. It sounded like a dream come true and some thing much needed after the stress of starting the new year. I asked 8 of my friends if they were interested in joining me in this endeavor. We had just watched Twilight a couple weeks prior at a sleepover so I knew they were Twihards like myself. 5 of them agreed (my boyfriend agreed to come later on). Out of the 3 of them had never seen Twilight but were down for an entire day at the movie theater.
The marathon started at noon. Honestly, it would’ve been nicer if it had started earlier so we wouldn’t have left at like 1am that would’ve been great. I got there later than my friends because Tay and I stopped to grab snacks and gas on the way. It was nice to be at the theater early enough to where we could get their full menu. I’m used to going later at night when they don’t have shit like the funnel cake bites.
My boyfriend had never seen any of the twilight movies until then. He’s not super interested but he loves me or whatever so he decided to tag along too. The theater has bingo card for us to use during our watch. They gave us super shitty crayons though so it wasn’t possible to really play. It gave me ideas on my own watch party idea though.
It was very fulfilling to achieve a childhood dream of mine even if it’s something as small as this. I felt like I missed out an experience because I was so young. When I saw Breaking Dawn in theaters it was amazing to view it with other fans and anticipate scenes that we loved and hated. I was happy that I was able to do it with such a great group of friends too. The people in the theater were great too. It was such an open atmosphere where we could all talk, laugh, and make fun of. I’m thankful my friends were down to do something moderately crazy with me like this. I’m happy that I have people in my life to indulge with. They’re always up for whatever I’m suggesting.
I also booked the wrong theater. Lesson learned, don’t buy tickets while you’re high and to double check lmao.
Thanks for reading
Shay ❤
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