The one older coworker who I don’t like is gone. I get to work with one of my favorite coworkers. My Minecraft house looks good, it’s one of good friend’s birthdays tomorrow. Like it just doesn’t get any better than this 😫🥺
If the message does not apply, it is not meant for you. Check other placements in your chart( Sun, Moon, Rising,Venus). May not resonate now but may down the road or later. May talk about past, present, or future situations/feelings/people
The World:
The end of a journey with a person or situation is near. You may have been dealing with this person for the last 3 years. You have may have known this person for 3 years. There may be a 3 year age difference. The month of March could be significant. I’m just getting that the last 3 months or 3 years have been quite hard or difficult. It’s not quite shaping up to how you envisioned.
There seems to be a lot of obstacles. A lot of setbacks, they seem financial in nature but it also feels like the problem is deeper than that. Feelings of immaturity or plans beings too in the wind. Maybe you thought this person was more mature than they presented themselves or they could feel that way about you.
It feels like you have been on this road before. You know the signs. You may be feeling stuck in the situation that you are in. It may feel like you may not have anywhere else to go in the situation or vice versa. You may be in a period of stagnancy. There’s nothing happening or you feel as though you or your life have been at a standstill for the last couple months. It seems like either you or someone in this equation is stuck in the past or wanting to go back to the past. They want to go back to when things were simple. Time with this person seems to stretch but not in a good way. It almost feels like it too much time with this person. You or this person/situation may feel as there is no sight for your future or that you can’t envision what you once saw anymore.
Life is calling for you to move along this road by yourself. While there is room for another, it feels as though it is not the time or maybe not the person. You have someone on this road with you already and you do not like the sights. If you continue you will never see what you seek.
The ChariotReversed:
It may be that you were once intertwined with this person or situation. You were inseparable. Nothing could stand between you two. You saw success with this person. You thought that you and this person could ride to the end.
I feel like there’s such a big gap between this card and the previous card. It feels like you envisioned the end of the situation or success but not the actual work it would take to spell out success with this person. You were operating on the possibility of the end with this person/situation. It feels like pure impulse. It feels like this is common for you though though. Acting without planning and taking things into account. You are only thinking of success, of the bigger picture. It just feels like you or both parties went in blindly. You thought you had the end in sight but you are actually quite wrong.
Because of this. You are finding that you and this person or situation are much more opposite than you first thought. Especially within the last 7 months. It could be that there’s a 7 year age difference, an age ending in a 7 or the month of July seems significant. You have not been on the same page for quite some time. There could be an increase in bickering/arguments or you may find that you are no longer in sync. You no longer move the same or may find it harder to align your goals.
Someone in this equation is doubtful. They can sense that there are problems wrong or that you may both have approached the situation that you are in the same way I mentioned in the earlier paragraph. It just feels like there’s an air of pretending not to see. When I look at the whites of the eyes in the red dragon, it seems that someone is pretending or ignoring the big issues.
It just feels like the focus is lost here or that you or someone else is choosing not to focus on the issue at hand, the situation/relationship or better yet the work required to be with one another.
The dragons make me think that you are dealing with someone born in the year of the dragon or they may be like a dragon, greedy, monetarily focused, they may feel larger than life or like a fairy tail. They may be destructive in nature or you may be destructive.
5 of Wands:
The month of May seems significant. You may have met this person in the month of may or something significant happened. Ages/years ending in a 5 or there’s a 5 year age difference.
It feels like the beginning of this situation or relationship started out with this energy. Very chaotic, hot, passionate. It felt a little all consuming. It was exciting. It feels as though you may be dealing with a fire sign or you may have fire in your chart somewhere.
Leo season also seems to be of importance. July 23-August 22nd. It feels like something significant happened during this time frame. Some type of movement/relocation. With the fire imagery it doesn’t really seem like this came from no where. This fire or problem spilled over and was ignored. It feels like words were exchanged. Heated words. Not necessarily words of passion but definitely in the heat of the moment. It feels like whatever was said left you feeling raw and exposed. Honestly this card feels incredibly chaotic, like there are too many things happening at once. The problems that you ignored spilled over in a way that you were not expecting.
It seems as though you or this person have been consumed by the issues/problems that have been happening.You or this person may have been acting rashly or impulsively. Acting out of emotion/anger. It just feels like whatever has happened is still taking it’s toll or effect. It also feels like the fire is still spreading or it is still heavily affecting you currently. Kinda feels close to what the water signs were experiencing so you may be dealing with a water sign or have water in your chart as well.
It just doesn’t feel like you did shit about the problems you are facing. Just sitting and wallowing. I’m trying not to sound mean over text but like come on. You should’ve handled your problems like a mature person instead of just being inactive.
3 of Wands Reversed:
This energy is definitely current. This is the present day. The problems that you failed to attend to or even acknowledge has caused too many bridges to burned.
Someone in this situation has been very emotional and pensive. They have been thinking a lot about the past. It feels like retrograde/eclipse energy. That’s why it feels current. We just started of a retrograde on the 15th this month and we just had an eclipse. I can tell that it is not you who is emotional and pensive about this situation. The other person involved certainly is. It feels as though this person doesn’t want you to know they are feeling/thinking this way. They want to put up a United Front or at least that kind of what the imagery suggests to me. But that’s all that it is. It is just an image. A facade. They are trying to block anything else from happening that would be considered bad or let anyone else know that they are feelings these feelings. This person isn’t really good at expressing how they feel or they made be scared to acknowledge these feelings. There is definitely some distance though. It feels both emotional and physical.
However it feels as though you may need to uncross or unwind what is going on before it consumes you both. It seems as though you are both going in different directions or should be going in different directions but when your paths crossed both felt that world card energy of seeing it to the end with this person or situation. It just feels like you are in each other way. When you crossed paths it blocked a lot of other things for both parties. It could be the reason for the stagnancy or periods of stagnancy or just feeling like you’re not getting anywhere.
It just feels as though in order to move forward, you need to talk. It is what the world card and quite frankly the world is trying to tell you.
The Magician:
This person could’ve felt like the one. Or maybe you have gotten signs that this person could be the one. I feel like I stated earlier that this relationship was once passionate and playful. It gave you a lot of hope. It had you pulling out all the stops. I definitely felt that eye on the prize energy in the chariot card. It felt like you got the prize or thing you were seeking but didn’t do much planning after that. This person or situation that was presented gave hope that you could move forward. Enough to offer something. January seems significant.
However it feels like someone in this situation could be acting as a magician or that you both may be acting this way. They might not be appearing as they once did or the future they painted out or you imagined might not look as magical or promising as it once did. It definitely feels like the magic has worn off and you or both of you are seeing each other differently.
The honeymoon phase is definitely over. If the past 6-7 months didn’t prove that, maybe this last month did or next month will. The relationship or situation doesn’t have that light hearted energy anymore. There are too many stressors now. Life is getting real and your relationship is getting realer. The life you were trying to create with this person is much harder than you originally believed or imagined. I don’t really think both parties did much thinking about that part. It feels like you saw an end and tried to rush towards that.
The hand almost looks like a hand that you would put up when you are telling someone to pause or wait. It feels like both of you could be magicians in this situation. Trying to create something with each other but it just hasn’t seemed to be working. This also sounds silly to say but it has the energy of a missed high five. It’s not in reverse so I can tell that both parties started with both feet forward with intentions to create/start something new. But it has the air of being left hanging. Maybe you both started out all in but now one of you has gone astray or is not putting in the work required. This could be the retreat card energy. I see someone wanting to pull away or disconnect. You may be trying to go away with each other to disconnect from the world in order to be more with each other. It doesn’t feel like the trips together or time together is really helping the situation though.
The Tower/Seven of Coins/5 of cups/ 9 of Coins
The chaos that is happening around you needs to be confronted and controlled. Accountability and owning your part in the chaos is the only way. Right now you are in it but the only way to get outside of it is to get through your problems. You do that by actually dealing with them. No pussyfooting and feet dragging.
It’s time to be truthful with yourself and the situation. The more you continue to resist or ignore, the taller the flames and the bigger the problems will be. They will only stack on top of each other. This situation has a lot of emotion involved. A lot of hopes and dreams were invested in this situation. A lot of pride too. That could be the Leo energy that I felt when pulling this card. People tend to see Leo’s are prideful and arrogant. It feels like there is a lot of that energy in this situation from both parties. You were both so prideful in the connection and that it would work. I’m incredibly sorry to burst your bubbles but life and the situation/relationship you have put yourself in is not. Fear of failure and loss is heavy with this person. They may hate losing/being wrong(this person has never been told “I told you so” or humbled) or things not working out. This person may be very self sacrificing because they are so prideful. They refuse to acknowledge when things just aren’t working.
There’s cancer energy ruminating in this reading but not because you could be dealing with water signs. Cancers are known for being emotional as well as looking back at the past. I think I mentioned in a previous paragraph that someone is thinking heavily about the past. They exist there. They are thinking of things that were promised towards the beginning of the relationship. They are not seeing the results they had quite hoped for. They are feeling that 3 of wands reversal and the world card energy. They too are wondering why they aren’t where they thought they’d be. They are wondering where the expansion is that was promised. They are thinking of lost opportunities that could’ve helped that they didn’t do. They may be realizing or you may be realizing that these promises that were made in the beginning may not be a grand as they were originally. Instead they see the risks and what it took to get here at this point. They are wondering if it was worth it. If they burned too many bridges. They are wondering if you too are happy where you’re at currently.
The energy doesn’t feel like guilt but it sure as hell doesn’t feel like accountability lmao. These feelings fluctuate between wanting to feel guilt and wanting to ignore. They are ignoring how they feel about the big questions being posed about this situation. I just don’t think they’re expressing their true feelings when they are trying to enact these changes.They feel a bit two faced. That could be where the Libra energy is coming from or you or this person could have Libra placements. People tend to think Libra’s are liars or dishonest. I’m not endorsing it but libras can be very passive and that energy is all over this reading considering how nothing is being taken care of. They’re not trying to fix things, they just want that desired outcome. They are trying to fight the feelings of failure by trying to enact change so it doesn’t fail. That’s not a bad thing but too much has been done. Too much damage has been suffered on all ends.
Full Moon in Aries, Full Moon Eclipse, Fixed Moon
In order to not sound like a broken record. But this end is approaching you whether you’re ready to accept it or not. Full speed like the energy of a ram. Hard and fast and abrupt. Definitely Aries season you may be knocked sideways by this ending. I see it being heated. I see arguments. I see that people in the situation were not willing to listen. I see anger and stubbornness. I see it all coming to a head. Everything that was being ignored can no longer be ignored. That cancer energy that I was speaking of earlier is also about karma. You are about to reap what you sow.
While this ending may be unexpected, it is clearing the path for you. In time you will appreciate your path being cleared. I see positive outcomes from this parting. I see you being able to get back up like you always do and dusting yourself off.
For further proof or validation, I was finishing this up on my break and I had 3 minutes left on my timer. I was on schedule to be back on time. Once I saw that I was reaching the end of this reading and being close to done, time somehow got away from me. I was 2 minutes late for my break. The fear of not being where I was supposed to be at a given time is the message of this. Instead of being passive when I noticed the time, I took action and left immediately.
It sounds like some of you or people you know need to learn how to do just that.
My boyfriend and I made a fort in our living room. I used to love making forts when I was younger and I was feeling a lot of childlike whimsy since I was getting ready to see the Twilight movies.
It was very hard to build but totally worth it. Mocha really loved it too. She got in the way.
I wish we could’ve enjoyed it more. We were super tired after we built it. I had worked a double that night And my boyfriend cooked an amazing beef stroganoff. We passed out right away the first night. The second night, the Twilight marathon, we passed out again right away when we got home. We did enjoy it a bit more on Sunday. Very romantic to cuddle and smooch under the blankets.
Not that I feel like I’m super old or anything, in fact I feel the youngest I’ve ever been. I’m in my prime or entering my prime era. 23 made me feel so young but aged me emotionally. I don’t feel the need to harp on about the woes of my year, that is what my year in review is for. I just feel really good. I feel really good about my life, about the people in my life, the things that I’m doing, my goals, my health, my family, everything. My hardwork is paying off. I’m seeing the fruits of my labor.
This birthday wasn’t just any birthday, it was my golden birthday. I had been looking forward to this birthday for 10 years honestly. I always wondered what type of person I would be when this birthday rolled around. Would I be happy? Would I be in a relationship? Would I have a nice job? I can say I’m happier than I thought I was going to be at this age. I thought I would be miserable. I was right about being in crippling debt, but I didn’t think about the woman I would become. I never thought I would be a strong, mildly assertive, mindful, compassionate, and capable young woman. I no longer view myself as just a girl. I am a woman.
A woman who had a big birthday to plan.
I spent my last birthday bar hopping with my boyfriend. I had a great time with that but at the time I was struggling to connect with people. I had friends but our relationships were in the budding stages so we weren’t quite at that point yet.
I am at much different place in my life now than I was last year for my birthday. This year I wanted to do a big bash. I wanted to go to the Dells and I wanted to go to a casino to try my luck. Currently, I have a decent sized friend group so that was my biggest issue. I originally wanted to invite at least 20 people max but I narrowed it down to 16 since the place I chose was a 21 and up resort. I figured it was easier this way since you needed to be 21 gamble at the casinos.
To invite that many people over was ballsy. It could either be really good or really bad. My grandma questioned if I knew that many people, which kinda sucked because I don’t see why I wouldn’t be able to make friends or have that many friends. I am thankful that mostly everyone that I invited could show up. It meant a lot to me that people wanted to celebrate me with me. It feels amazing to be celebrated. It feels amazing to know that people see me and want to be with me and hang out with me. To have the community and family that I do is more than I could ever ask for.
Figuring out where to house all the people who were coming was the most stressful part. You would think paying for it would be hard but I was planning ahead early so I had time to save and work overtime if needed.
Our first option was a cabin that housed 14 people. It was super nice and had a lofted sleeping area as well as 2 bedrooms and pullout couches and a private deck. The downsides were that it was right by the rental office, no wifi, there was only one bathroom, and I was 2 people over the limit.
I found out I was over the limit the day that we were supposed to check in. Shout out to Angela at the resort, she really came in clutch. We upgraded to their house instead. That fit 16 people comfortably, 3 bathrooms, 2 living rooms, wifi, a private deck, 5 bedrooms, and a jacuzzi tub in the master suite. It was perfect. I don’t know why I didn’t go with the house in the first place.
I am a terrible camera man but this was the digs. It really made the weekend incredible
I had so much booze, so much food, and so much fun. We had a potluck which worked out incredible. We were set for food for the entire weekend. The drinks were flowing too. I had my cherry flavored Dr Mcgillicuddy, I had tequila, I had my favorite moscato wine with me, and I had my friends. It was more than I could ask for. Since the internet sucked, we were kinda forced to talk to each other. It was nice though. I connected on a deeper level with more of my friends. We got to talk about things that gave more insight to who they are and what they have going on. It was nice to disconnect with them like that. It felt like a vacation. That is exactly what I want 24 to feel like, a fucking vacation, especially after the last year that I had.
The casino was cool too. It was a very sad place though. The excitement that my friends and I had versus the sad and lifeless energy the other patrons had was a little staggering. It felt like they almost hated that we were excited. They probably hated that we were a diverse group of people too. Some old coot pushed my friend to get to her husband who wasn’t winning shit and didn’t really even say sorry. I came into the casino with almost $200. I only took out $60 and won absolutely nothing. I thought the birthday luck would carry me but it clearly doesn’t work that way. One of my boyfriend and I’s mutual friend was luckier than I was. They won close to $150 or more I think. I wish I had their luck.
All in all, it was good to celebrated. Everyone should feel that way on their birthday. They should feel special, they should be surrounded by people who want to be in their orbit.
I am thankful, more thankful than I could ever say. I love all of my friends and most importantly, I love the girl that they’re celebrating. She’s so cool and smart. She knows her shit. She strong willed and has goals She loves having fun and connecting with people. She hates being told what to do and is fiercely independent. She likes miniature earrings and warm sweaters. She likes taking herself on dates. She’s kind of spacey sometimes. Her feet are always planted firmly on the ground but her head is in the clouds. She has a boyfriend who loves her and a family that supports most of the things she does. And she’s really good looking and her ass getting fat too.
I love me. Happy birthday Shanice, you are amazing. It is your year, it’s your time. Go and be great!!
Had never really dreamt of being behind the wheel. I tried a little when I was 16 but money was tight then and I couldn’t afford driver’s ed. Not affording it didn’t discourage me or anything, I just felt that a car was a moving death machine. I’ve been in numerous car accidents as a child, the moments were scary and probably did shape a bit of fear around driving but I don’t think it was an integral part. It’s just not what I imagined my freedom being tied to. I hate the thought of it being tied to anything but it’s almost silly to think that way in the world/society that we’ve created.
I’ve always stated that I wanted to live in a walkable city since I was young. I think that is partially the reason why I like where I live so much, I can walk anywhere. It’s a big city but it’s not so big in the way that I can’t get around with just my two feet or a bike. Trauma aside, I always felt that being solely reliant on cars was the worst move to go environmentally. That’s so much waste going into the air. I wanted to live in a place that didn’t require me to drive much.
I’m 24 now. My ideals are still there from when I was younger. However, I know the world just a tiny bit more now, I know that if I want to get to where I want to be, I’m going to have to succumb to the system just a little bit. It hurts my pride a little bit, It was a sentiment that I held on to for a long time. There will be good things to come out of this I am sure. Like being able to get somewhere faster, blasting music in a car, speeding, and being able to go to far away places that aren’t accessible through buses or trains.
I think part of my small lack of excitement is just the thought of another bill. To have a car is expensive. For something we need so much in this world, it’s not as accessible and it costs a mortgage. I’m going into debt just so I can drive to Taco Bell. I would lie and say that I’m sure as I get older and get a better job that these feelings will go away but they won’t. My government hates its people and I’m driving around in the death trap they are using to further divide the masses. I don’t really feel like I’m sticking it to the man when I’m doing exactly what they want.
Even though I’m a little pessimistic about being behind the wheel, I can say that I feel the bit of freedom that you get through being behind the wheel. It has sucked to have to rely on the time of others when you want to get somewhere or be at the mercy of the city and its metro system. I missed things that I wanted to experience because I had no viable way to get there. A 20 minute errand is cut down to 10 minutes because I don’t have to walk. I can meet my friends at more places. The events from flyers that I see or Facebook marketplace are within reach. I can see my family a bit more. They live farther away from me and it has been hard to see them.
The driving bit will get easier.
It’s a lot to be behind the wheel. I think I’m too caught up on the thinking about the responsibilities of being on the road. I feel a bit silly worrying this much but it’s a hunk of metal that can go 100mph, I should be a little scared of it and what it can do.
I’m hoping to test out before next winter. Getting drive time may be a difficult since my instructor and I have some busy schedules. I also just want some time to drive in more residential areas before driving in the city that I live in. They’re pretty aggressive drivers and they scare me.
Wish me luck and I shall see you all on the road soon